Self Esteem and Confidence are very different...to me anyway...

Confidence: Carrying yourself well around others. How you feel around others.

Self Esteem: How you feel about yourself.

I went out yesterday - saw Slumdog Millionaire, was OK. Had M.I.A. tunes in it...love that girl - must add her to my profile music thing actually.

But I went out and I put on eyeshadow, eyeliner and Vaseline. My dad had a fit. I'm nearly sixteen for Christssake! I don't wear make up to school or anywhere else. Only when I'm going out shopping or to a eating place or something. In the words of my father: "I don't want [her] wearing make up as people will get the wrong idea, mainly men..."

I have had a boyfriend and I didn't tell him for that exact reason. Deary me. There are girls in my school and they dress like skets every single day of their lives, they put on bronzer and foundation and end up looking like Ompaa-Loompas, which is attractive - obvs as the majority of guy who are pricks find them attractive. I put on PURPLE eye shadow - can't even see it that well mind you because of my skin tone, and a little bit of eyeliner and Vaseline...

I might just walk round in my tights and a top or even better, run around on the streets in my underwear just to spite him...but I'm not that Confident. So hey.

BRITS were on yesterday - big let down. Good music though...Coldplay, Kings of Leono, The Petshopboys...a good mix.

I kissed a girl...big deal right?

Liely German x