This is my first post so I s'pose I should be excited....=/

I am Let's be honest. I'm really pissed off.
I'm so unsure if I should say why, but I might.
You can read and say I'm stupid and sad and whatever shit you want to think about me but whatever deal. Tis only me. No biggie.

I am sat at home, but I could be going shopping - and I'm not going shopping beacause of my hair. (Don't hold your breath yet ite?) I have the self esteem of a squashed ant. I never used to be like this, have no idea when I got like this but it was a working progress I'm sure...

I wouldn't be surprised if I had BDD...or Bipolar or anything - I am 15 btw and I have been in and out of the hospital with depression and OD's and it's not good.

Sometimes and it's only sometimes that I feel like I have to lie to get somewhere, but once I've finished lying it's like "Oh...well that was a colosal waste of time' and sometimes it is because nobody notices me anyway.

Feeling better...

I'm just really angry. I don't know how upset I am I just feel like shiteness and it's fucking everything up for me now.

You're reading this and you're thinking...'Well this is just a typical teenager and there are bigger problems in the world blah blah ladidah fart blah balh thislookslikeit'sgoingtitsup' it would be nice if you went away now as as a person I am fully aware that there are other things going on in the world and people are dying and we're all in a financial crisis and people are getting shot up so yea..I'm not stupid It's just Nice to have someone to listen...

Earlier events of the day:

• I went to my dancing place in my pyjamas because it was the last day...they had a Christmas party but I didn't go because I was feeling lazy and I had nothing to wear
• I...I...[It's Saturday so it's been very uneventful]
• I got my eyebrows threaded and it hurt like FUCK...
• I could've gone and seen Twilight - but because of my hair [harhar] I din't go =(
• I ate a packet of biscuits
• And I am sitting here in a empty house dying because I feel like it.

I have just realised it's Christmas in five days and I don't care. Not now anyway.

That was a longish post maybe?

Liely German x